Showing posts with label quitting; Facebook; blogging; feeling bad; malaise. Show all posts
Showing posts with label quitting; Facebook; blogging; feeling bad; malaise. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Understanding My Malaise

How do you know if your malaise is a general malaise or if it is a specific malaise? This sounds like a quiz I should be constructing/taking on BuzzFeed.
But in the absence of this amazing quiz that will solve all my problems, I am instead staring out into the distance, developing a hierarchy of tea and sadness, and also listening to songs on YouTube while "grading" (read: pretending to grade while wasting time).
In any case, during the throes of my malaise yesterday, which might have been just Post-Spring Break/Monday Malaise I deactivated my Facebook account.
Why? Why, you may ask??
Well, there are many reasons, number one of which is that it is my number one time suck. The result, today at least is that I *did* in fact grade perhaps a few more papers, but also I found other ways to waste time. WIN for me!
Also, lately, FB has made me feel bad. Not like, oh, look at that cute puppy, I wish I could adopt him but I can't. Sad face.
But bad like, why X instead of Y (about the general nature of the universe), also why doesn't Z like Q or me? Or why does W keep posting about guns?
Like BAD BAD, as in, is the nature of the universe evil? Am I stupid for feeling left out? (so maybe it's just severe narcissism I'm suffering from??)
In general, these were the minority of the FB posts, but also I have like 10 million friends I don't know and the idea of trying to figure out who to delete and is that bad for my writing career... (answer: who cares!!).
Anyway, that is why I find myself blogging, which I think is a GOOD thing, so I'll just keep blogging over here in my corner by myself while the rest of you loll on the beach and have cocktails together. I'm hoping I'm get some actual THINGS done (besides FB posts I mean...)

*the end*