For the rest of the "summer" I'm officially no fun. Today, for some reason that remains a mystery to me, I had the first of what promises to be a series of anxiety attacks heralding the return of school.
After spending a good deal of the early afternoon hiking in the Albion Basin (would have pictures but the camera's batteries are eternally "exhausted"), I returned home to have a premature nervous breakdown. I was saying as much when Middlebrow, sensing an opportunity, said he would take Son to the park. MB was slow getting off the couch (where he has been parked, working, for, oh, forever) so Son began badgering me to take him to the park.
"Let's go to the park, Mom, the nervous breakdown is at the park."
On the plus side, I did almost finish one of my syllabi. So I got that goin' for me.
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. . . which is good.
I, too, have been having nervous seizures regarding the coming of the s-word. So--wanna get together to plan the creative non-fiction course?
Somehow working summers has prevented this from happening until the day before the semester begins. The sense of dread sets in full at that point. Why, I wonder, do I feel so "dreadful?"
Right now I'm cruising along wondering how in the hell this summer semester passed so quickly. I feel for Middlebrow. I am glad I am not teaching on top of everything else.
Middlebrow feels for middlebrow. Middlebrow also feels for Dr. Write and the rest of the anxiety stricken.
oh, it's all so horrible. this is one of the true perils of the job, the dread of having to start up again after having stopped so fully.
I wish I had summers off... :)
Be sure to check out the teacing nightmares of the anxiety-stricken aerobil.blogspot.com Myself, I divide my teaching anxieties between teaching dreams in which I never quite find my class and everyone gives up on me (or they've moved my office, or...), and the old acting nightmares, in which I haven't learned my lines and don't know where I'm supposed to be when...
Nope, no performance anxiety here!
I too worked all summer but still have anxiety about the fall when adjunt training/forums/visits and faculty meetings begin. Much easier to cruise under the radar during the summer.
I've found that it helps to stand next to someone more anxiety-ridden than you are; it can make you feel less insane. I volunteer to be your anxiety barometer; in my presence, you may register in at fairly close to normal.
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